Why am I doing all of this?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XEHAbJrafHM This past week, God has been teaching us patience and a whole-lotta-faith.

My husband and I had decided that we were going to pursue adoption. It's something we both have a heart for, and in the past, he always was laid off right around the time we chose to pursue it again.

Yet again, shortly after we decided to pursue adoption, my husband found out that he was going to be laid off from his job of 5 years. Layoffs around this time of year are normal for us. We can expect a layoff around the fall months and into Christmas time, however, this one is much different, and much more long term.Screen Shot 2015-08-31 at 1.17.56 PM

In that moment, I remembered not only that God's timing is perfect, but that he has always provided for our needs. He knows what we "need" more than we do, and he has given me an unexpected peace about the layoff. (I think our neighbors, family and friends are more worried for us than we are!) I also realized that if I am going to be a stay-at-home mom with a business, I needed to be a better steward of my time AND businesses.

Being a health and fitness coach isn't all unicorns and butterflies. Sure, it's AMAZING to see women reach their health and fitness goals, and even as an introvert, I've loved making the friends that I've made, even if I've never met them in person, but there are also really hard times that make you want to quit.

I knew, that if I wanted to continue my business at home, I needed to value my time, money and resources and make it a profitable business. It's important that we are good stewards to what God has brought into our lives, and my fitness business is not an exception.

In the book "Business for the Glory of God" by Wayne Grudem, He covers a lot of things: Ownership, Productivity, Employment, Commercial Transactions, Profit, Money, Inequality, Competition, Borrowing and Lending, Attitudes of the Heart and the Effect on World Poverty <---Literally the titles to the chapters in his book! ;)

While we don't want to be materialistic and feel like we're owed money, a nice house, nice cars and a cushy life, it's also not a sin to have money and make a profit, and in fact, is a great avenue to glorify God. It DOES have it's temptations to sin, be greedy and to hoard what we believe is "ours". We cannot LOVE God and Money. The LOVE of money is the issue, not money in and of itself. <Off topic, but important in my mission> ;)

I'm just going to jump right in here. (God has given me a burden and a mission, but he did not give me the gift of writing) So buckle up. It might be a bumpy ride :)

Goal #1: You may or may not know that I have strong-willed children. My son has a big personality and a super strong-will. My husband was on 12 hour night shifts when he was born, so along with taking care of my son throughout the evening, it was also my mission to keep him quiet during the day while Eric slept...Fat. Chance. He quite literally never slept. Ever. I went from 165 after he was born to 112-118 in TWO weeks due to stress, anxiety and postpartum depression. I developed a condition called alopecia areata, where I lose patches of hair when I'm stressed. It was a very dark time in my life. I so desperately wanted to enjoy this new little life God had given to us, but I was so tired. I felt seriously insane, and probably was borderline crazy. There was so much fear in my mind, and I remember sitting in the car with my Mom, saying, "I just don't ever see this getting any better. When will I feel normal again?"

Praise God, he brought me out of that! There are still times where my anxiety takes over, but I am thankful for my living God who answers prayer and can give that unimaginable peace that I so long for, and even when my anxiety feels like it's in control, I can remember that HE is in control over my anxiety.

My goal is to be there for women struggling with similar battles. Not just new moms, but mom's who feel like their only option is to simply "survive" the day!

Goal #2: For those mom's trying to survive! Being a parent is hard! Schedules are not longer even something to entertain, as life is unpredictable.

Were we doing something wrong?

The house is quiet. What the heck are the kids doing? Oh, baby powder is all over the main floor? Cool.

My goal? Not necessarily to offer advice. I mean, I'm one of these moms. I don't have the answers, and I won't pretend to. But I will encourage (and try to implement myself!) us to dive into God's word, and to try to see everything in light of eternity, not just the here and now.

A great book that has been a huge help to me is "Treasuring Christ When our Hands are Full" by Gloria Furman. I highly recommend you check it out!

Goal #3: This is a big one for me. I believe that we are called to

Open your mouth for the mute,     for the rights of all who are destitute. Open your mouth, judge righteously,     defend the rights of the poor and needy.

                                     Proverbs 31:8-9

Give justice to the weak and the fatherless;     maintain the right of the afflicted and the destitute. Rescue the weak and the needy;     deliver them from the hand of the wicked.”

                                             Psalms 82:3-4

My hope is that one day I am able to use whatever God allows financially to bless the mothers in crisis pregnancies during and after the birth of their child, children who are in need either here in the US, or overseas, and families trying to adopt. Adoption is expensive and I'd be so honored to just somehow, anonymously, make the financial burden not so much of a burden for them. So many families/children are facing so much worse than we will ever even know. I believe we are called to help them, in some way, shape or form. So, this is my heart. This is the driving force behind why I continue my business even when it gets hard. God has given me this for a reason, and I believe that He can do so many things through it, and I pray, that if my business doesn't glorify Him, that he doesn't allow it to continue.

UncategorizedShawna Pence